Reality Kicker

Despite the months of nausea, and the four pregnancy tests, and the exhaustion, and the tight, round belly, I still don't really believe I'm pregnant.  It just seems so strange to be heading back into babyland right as we were approaching the other side.  I feel so much more disbelieving and shell shocked than I did with Isabelle - and she was not only a total surprise, but also my first kid. I literally had no idea what was going to happen, and yet I feel more skeptical now.

Right now I am 16 weeks (and 4 days, but who's counting), and I am now completely obsessed with feeling the baby move.  Because I've been down this road before, I'm familiar with exactly what it is I'm trying to feel, so I expect it to happen within the next week or so.  I think finally starting to feel kicks and movement is going to do a lot to make this whole baby seem like more than just a figment of my imagination.

Huh.  I thought I'd have more to say about this, but my brain is just not firing on all cylinders right now, and the kids have been SUPER noisy tonight, and I keep getting asked completely distracting questions.  So I guess this is it for this post.  I'll let you know if I ever feel anything resembling a baby or if this was somehow all some sort of strange dream.