Slow And Steady

Sometimes it is so hard to keep your focus on what you are doing right, as opposed to all of the areas you are failing at.  I feel like I'm doing such a terrible job of implementing any sort of New Year's changes into my life - and then I remember that my plan was to move forward slowly and tackle one thing at a time.  January's goal was to get into a more regular cleaning schedule, cleaning everything more regularly/ more often, and with the exception of the laundry (which looks GOOD sitting in the basket near the bathroom for weeks at a time, I swear) I do feel I have made progress in that area.  I also wanted to organize the kids' toys and get rid of everything broken/ unloved/ outgrown, and while I have yet to tackle the basement, I did do each bedroom, so that is half done.  But I can't focus on that because all I can see is how I haven't been blogging more, and I haven't been making my weekly meal schedule like I wanted, and despite printing out a list of 'inspirations' my daily photo has dropped off again, and I haven't gotten back into exercising regularly, and, and, and.

Blergh!

I hate this sort of vague anxiety that creeps up on me every so often.  Where I feel like I'm forgetting things I need to do, and all the projects I want to tackle are stacked so high I am rendered immobile.  Does that happen to you?  I have so much I want to do, and change, and improve, but sometimes it starts to feel like it all has to be done now now now, ignoring the fact that these types of things are not instantaneous fixes and I'm not suddenly going to wake up one day an entirely different person without making tiny incremental changes each day first.  Delayed gratification is just not my thing - ask my credit balance.

But I know I'm approaching things the right way, even if I have to suffer through a few more days of uncomfortable feelings until the anxiety fades and I get back into a positive mindset.  I have to focus on what my goals for February will be (I'm thinking reestablishing my exercise routine), as well as maintaining the small success I have already achieved.  It's all about the journey, not the destination, right?

I just wish this twitchiness would pass.